Tuesday, 22 March 2022

Emotional Chew Toy

So you think someone loves you, but really you're just their emotional chew toy, lots of fun when they want to play, that is until you fall to pieces.

I feel like shit, and I hate the level of gaslighting involved.  The same girl who tells me all the ways she loves me and wishes we'd worked out just a few weeks ago, and now because I want it to happen, or not, I'm treated like a lunatic and like it's all in my head. 
It's just really disappointing to be treated that way by someone you thought cared. 

But it's done, I made the healthy choice, and here I am just feeling unsure where to from here.  I'm trying really hard to stay the same loving optimist I always am, but it's hard. 
There's a sense of relief too though, it's over finally. 

2 comments:

  1. They never deserved you. You are not merely an ego fluffer, or a space filler. You are the full package, the coffee and the donut, the sun and the moon, the scandalous and sassy yet caring soft natured effigy. You are worth all the love you radiate. Don't wait for someone who just likes the reassurance of having you there. Branch out and mingle where the wild things are x

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    1. Awww well I'd definitely like to think so, basically I'm just at the point where I am going to remain open to people instead of ignoring the possibilities. Here's hoping someone comes along ❤️

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